Tuesday, February 25, 2014


Really?? I mean.......... How? Why?

Now if your someone who is fully confident in their own abilities and even desired and pursued to be in ministry since you were knee high, it might not seem like a challenge. For the rest of us suffering from Moses syndrome, you think, " Surely this can't be right! God must have made a mistake!" then it is a whole 'nother story.

The utter sense of inadequence that fills my heart is almost unexplainable. What is it I could do for God, How could I do it? A sense of fear overcomes me and I almost feel like choking on the very idea of failing at this task that seems to big to accomplish.

I am no David, Jeremiah, Joseph, Peter or Paul. I stumble and feel the weighted burden of ministry on my back just at the thought of it. Don't get me wrong, it is an honor and privilege to serve the Lord but the reality is my sense of inadequacy can have a crippling effect.

Looking around there are those who are so much better and suited for the call. His thoughts who can know them.

Somehow in the midst of my self doubt, I am reminded it is not me but Him that works through me. My only job is to believe and cooperate with Him and let Him work in me and through me. Easier said than done but I take refuge in the fact that, God never fails and His word which is like dew on the ground never goes unaccomplished.

One day at a time!!

Monday, June 27, 2011


      In a world like today, in a time such as this, so many people are troubled and despaired. We all look for a quick step solution to all our problems. There were times I do wish I had Aladdin's genie or Cinderellas fairy godmother. Just a wave of the wand or a snap of the finger and everything would be alright.

        Well, I shouldn't envy fictional characters, if anything, they ought to envy me because I have someone even better. The WORD of God who is Jesus Himself. (John 1:1)

       Everything is already provided for in the WORD of God. Psalm 107:20 says, " He sends forth His WORD and heals them and rescues them from the pit and destruction."

     Many wait for a miracle to happen in a dramatic way (and it can and does happen, but this is more of an exception than a rule), and chase after men and women of God whom we consider as the "chosen ones and flowing in the gifts" to lay hands or speak a prophecy into our life, yet, the very miracle we need is right in front of us. Everyday spend time in the WORD, cultivate a habit of meditating on His WORD. His WORD is alive, it is pure, it is Jesus Himself. Meditate on Jesus.

      (PS: There is nothing wrong with having a man or woman of God pray for you; but let us not feel as though if they are not around then we will not receive from God)

       When in a situation where we need healing, restoration, protection, redemption, salvation, His WORD, comes forth. JESUS COMES FORTH. God loves us all so very much and wants us to have that intimate relationship with Him that whatever we need or want, we are confident in Him and His WORD and go to Him directly and He can send forth His WORD. How much better is it to be the one who enjoys that closeness with Abba Papa that when you need anything, you hear directly from Him. As a beloved child of God, you have that privileged, you are chosen, you are anointed, you have son-ship,you have kingship, you are a priest so you can speak His WORD and He can bring it forth to you and through you.

        Let His WORD come forth in your life in every aspect. Let Jesus come forth

Sunday, June 26, 2011


"OPEN WIDE, AAAAAHHHHHHHH!" is what the Lord is saying to His beloved children. I saw the picture above and my first thought was, "this is how God wants me to be." 

You see, those little baby birds, did nothing to deserve the worm. Mama bird knows her babies will need to eat, she goes out looks for the food, brings it back to them and all they have to do is OPEN WIDE and the food is dropped in.

I saw my relationship with God in this picture, He wants me to trust that He knows what I need, when I need it, and He will go get it and bring it to me. I have to enter His rest and dwell there and let Him be God. There is nothing I can do to deserve all the blessings He has for me, but I thank God, that Jesus did what was deserving of God the Fathers blessing and much more and since I share in His glorious inheritance, I too am a partaker of those blessings

Even today at Sunday service, my pastor taught on Psalms 81:10," I am the Lord you God, Who brought you up out of the land of Egypt. Open your mouth wide and I will fill it." and immediately this image flashed in my mind.

So whatever it is you need, trust Abba Papa enough to know He will bring it to you, in His perfect timing and perfect way.

God is so awesome, I wouldn't trade Him for anything.

Saturday, June 25, 2011


(I wrote this posting a few years back when I was struggling with where I was spiritually, even though I am in a different, better place in my relationship with Christ, I thought this was a good read for a start. )

"Just as you are", is an answer the Lord gave me as I contemplated what I needed to do to get back right with GOD.

I guess i should give you a little background. I wasn't always this way,....away from God and full of unbelief. A few years back (now i realise) how much closer and intimate my relationship with the Lord was. Of all the wonderful things He had shown me and the beautiful experiences that I had had in his presence. I trusted the Lord and i believed,..... the child- like faith!

Somehow along the way so much has changed, alot has gone on and now i realise that I allowed myself to be moved, I allowed myself to have my eyes taken away from God. All i know is that I want to get back to where i was. Every night i wonder what it is i need to to do to get myself right with God. What is it i can do to make God accept me back in and get back to the place that i was before, and all Jesus said was "Just as you are."

All i need to do is let HIM take of me, let HIM love me, let HIM wash me, let HIM embrace me. JUST AS I AM He will take me back and all i felt was an overwhelming sense of love.

I would love to have the opportunity to share my journey, maybe someone in a similar situation too will know JUST AS YOU ARE, God accepts you!

It does not matter what you have done, said, thought, felt, JUST AS YOU ARE! It doesn't matter how far you think you have fallen, or how far you feel like you are away for God JUST AS YOU ARE He will take you back!!!